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Tuesday, March 16, 2010 @ 10:51 PM

I'VE MOVED !

DO RELINK ME ! ;DD
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Sunday, March 14, 2010 @ 4:25 AM

* Eyebrow Cacat & Muke Stop It *

` As'salammualaikum Readers (:
Basically Today Stay-ed At Home , Good Girl Mahr ? Heh .
I Had Alot Of Fights With IhynnBby Today , Currently Im Fighting With Him ):
OhMyGawd , Why Is All This Happen To Me God ? You're So Cruel . I Don't Wish To Fight With Him Anymore , I Want To Live Peacefully With Him , Haish :'(

Chatted With KynaSmallSmall & Her Boyfriend Just Now . Sumpah Geyrek , Last Long Ok Both Of You * Winks *
Now , Both Of Them Are Off9-ed & Im Chatting With My Adek Angkat , ZeeZee Elecktronika ! Huaaaks , ((:
Im Bored Lha , Entertain Me Please Someone , Hahha ;D

IhynnBby , I Hope You Really Think . You Said That I Get This From You Because I Hurt You Last Time . Eh , At Least I Apologize & Accepted You Back ! Unlike You , Keep Hurting Me & Throw Me Aside . Sumpah Im Not Your Doll . I Had Enough . We Fought Every Single Day Without Fail . You Said Things That Hurt Me , And Even At The Slightest Joke , You Got Angry . Where's The Old You ? I Hate The New You , You Don't Bother / Love Me Anymore , You Text Me When You're Bored Or Etc , And The Minute You Got Another Girl Msg-ing You , You Ignore My Msg(s) . Im Not Your Toy . Understand Me Please ? Im Gone This Wednesday , You Must Take Care Of Yourself & Family . I Know You're Going In Too Soon , Hope We Meet In 2014 Love . I Love Youuu >3

Haish , Im Not In The Mood . Short Post For Today .
Take Care & Goodbye .

Saturday, March 13, 2010 @ 4:49 AM

- As'salammualaikum / Peace Be Upon You (:

Hello Hello , Im Sorry For Not Posting , I Was Busy & Kept Getting Home Late This Few Days ~ :DI Will Start From Thursday Ay ?

-- Thursday ;
Had School As Per Normal , Straightaway Went Back Home After School . Had A Damn Big Arguement With IhynnBby , We Spilt Vulgarities & Stuffs ! OMG , Sumpah I Was Damn Rude , Im Sorry Tao ? I Didn't Mean It .. Ok , So At 4.05p.m , He Declared We Are Nothing Anymore , So I Just Agreed , I Bathed After That & Went To School With My Mother , Since Our School Was Having A Sec 2 Meet The Parents Session . Ok , Mr Yap Said Alot About Me , He Praise My Handwriting , Heh . Mr Teng Said I Was Always Playing HP & Stuffs . Mr Yang More Worse , He Ask Me Go Outside Of The Classroom & He Talked To My Mother That I Got Boyfriend All , But My Mother Say She Know Who I Was Contacting With Etc . I Guess He Visited My Blog Then , HAHA ! You Come Then Never Tag ? Not Free You Know , Cheey :P . Then At 7.25p.m , I Received A Msg From IhynnBby , Then We Msg-Msg , He Said He Want To Meet Me The Next Day . After MPS , Went To Kallang & Ate & Hom-ed (:

-- Friday ;
Had School As Per Normal , Had Health CheckUp , The Nurse Ask Me If I Smoke Or Not , I Said Yes , But Trying To Quit ! HAHA , Mcm Phm Jek Aku Maow Quit , Suda Addicted Lha Ghees (:
So , I Met Him After School . :D He Cut His Hair . Sumpah Da Tak Handsome Xiak ! Ish You Niy , Py Grow Balek Lha Ok ? Bruu Handsome , Sayanq Kao ! HAHA (;
Then We Go Somewhere Near His Block , I Lost My Maths File , It Dropped From The Staircase At This Level & When We Went Down , We Couldnt Even Find It . Fuck That Someone Who Pciked It Up ! :@
Around 6.45 We Went Home . But When He Was Sending Me To This Block , We Some Sort Was Quarelling About Something, But Okay Already , Heeees ;DD
Got Home & Slept Straightawaaaaaaay ! Sumpah I Was Damn Tired . xD

-- Saturday ;
That Is Today , Our School Had Sports Day ! :D
Woke Up At 5.30a.m & Bath-ed . Left House At 5.50a.m , Miss-ed The Bus & Board The 6.00a.m Bus & Took 31 To Bedok Stadium . Suddenly I Was Damn Happy & Kept Cheering On My House Team , TOPAZ . Suddenly IhynnBby Ask Me If His Attached , What Will I Do .Then I Ask Him If He's Attached Or Not . Then He Said He Was Attached With His Ex , Nadia . So I Said Kinda Jealous & Goodbye To Him & Tried To Cheer Up & Start Shouting For My House Team . Anyway , My House Got This Sec 1 Boy Who Ran For 100m , He Sprain His Leg , But Still He Ran . Of Course He Got Last , But Hey , That's The Spirit !! I Salute To You Ay Boy ? ;DD
Then Got The Cheerleading Competition , 1st Was Ruby , Followed By Topaz & Then Emerald & Sapphire . So This Year , The Champion For 2010 Was ; Emerald ! Topaz Was 2nd , Ruby 3rd & Sapphire Last . Good Job Ay All Of You ? ;DD
Lepak With Kyna , Liyana & Eyfaah At Bedok Library , Gossip And Stuffs . HAHA ! Then We Kene Sound With This Librarian Uhr , Bcos She Ask Us To Shut Up , I Take A Heavy Book & Purposely Dropped It . Then She Came And Said : Awak Sume Jangan Bising Boleh ? Nie Memang Bkn Library Saya , Tpi Bkn Library BAPAK Awak Jugak .
Me : * Makes Face * Then I Guess She Saw .
She : Jangan Nak Kurang Hajar Eh .
Me & Kyna Stares At Her , Then I Say : eh , kite tak bwatt bising pe xia ? and mak bpk jangan bwatt maen uhr . stand up & walk away .
Kyna : budo xia kao .
she : sapehr yang budo skrg ?
kyna : nak kejar kejar satu library uhr xia !
then we walked off & 4 of us start spilting vulgarities at her . eh mind you xia , she's a muslim , wearing the Tudong somemore , then maen makbpk ! pikehr free2 pehr xial ? nak cmplain pt Principal , cmplain uhr , tak goyang budo ! prangai konek xial -.-"
Then At 5.00 , I Go Home . While Waiting For The Bus , I Receive A Msg From IhynnBby , He Said Sweet Things , Then Msg Msg , Suddenly He Ask Me To Call , We Talked Talked , Then He Tell Me He Pranked Me That He Was Attached ! Busted Xia Niy Anak ! Tunggu Jek Lha Ok Besok Yer You ? BLUEK :P
Then Hang Up , Msg With Kynaa & Him . Reached Home & Played Lappy . Then He Msg Me : Bie , You Kol I Uhr , Boring Seh . So I Was Shock As In Why He Called Me Bie When We Had Broke Up , Ok Nevermind , I Use Whatever Type Of Way He Talked To Me , HAHA ! Then Called Him , He Said He Cannot Hear , So I Went Down & Used Public Phone . Then He Say Still Cannot Hear, So He Go Picit Something Then Can Hear . Slengeh Kn Sayang Aku Niy ? Heh , Slenge Slenge Pon Tetap Aku Sayang Tao ! :D * Kay You , Takm Kembang Eh ? :P *
After That He Talked Horny , Entertain Him , Laugh Mcm Pmpn Giler Bawa Blk , Matrep Tengok Aku Semacam Xia ? -.-"
Then Hang Up , Went To 7-11 , Bought Drinks & Went Up . So Here I Am . Awaiting For Him To Call Me Back . Where The Hell Are Youuuuuuuuu ?! Ish , Call / Text Me Asap Ok Love ? Sayang Kao ! (;

Im Ending Off , GoodBye ~
TakeCaree ;

Wednesday, March 10, 2010 @ 3:12 AM

` Im Back From MIA-ing , Miss Me ? (:

^_> * Second Edition , :D

- Peace Upon You My Readers (:
Im Back From MIA-ing I Guess Since Im Feeling Much Better , But Im Still Having Bad Heartache(s) . :'(
Anyhoots , Thanks To All Of You Who Cheered Me Up , Even Those I Don't Know , Thanks Alot People ! Now I Realise That There's Much More People Out There Who Cares About Me , I Love You Guys , And Not Forgetting My Ex , IhynnBby . Heheh . xD

Firstly , I Wanna Talk About My Relationship Status .
-- Im Officially Single Now . But My Heart Is Taken , Im Still Loving IhynnBby , And I Won't Stop Loving Him . He Clarified That Im Just His Friend From Now On . But I Appreciate It , At Least He Stills Wants To Be My Friend , Unlike My Other Ex(s) . Im Still Waiting For Him Though , And I Got News That He's Going In To BH Next Month . Omg , You Must Take Care Of Yourself Ay Love ? I Will Wait For Your Return & Visit You Often Ok ? Don't Worry About Me , Im Gonna Be Fine , I Love You IhynnBby (: . Anyway , IhynnBby Is The Only Guy Im Contacting With Eh , Im Not The Type Who Flirts With Others Once Im Officially Single . (:

Secondly , I Wanna Talk About School .
-- School Has Been Great For Me Nowadays , With The Exception That I Will Burst Into Tears Suddenly When i Think Of IhynnBby And Flashback Our Great Times Together . My Friends Cheered Me Up , Thanks Alot Guys , Love You All . So , I Cried Just Now During English Lesson While Reading The Message I Got From IhynnBby + Listening To The Song , Sayangku . I Was Crying When I Was Suppose To Give Ideas To My Group Since I Was The Leader . Mr Yap Came To Me And Said Alot Of Things , But One Thing I Will Keep In Mind Is That ; " Don't Give Your Heart Too Much To Guys , Being In A Heartbroken Status Is Just Temporary , You Will Be Over It As Time Passes By . " At That Point , I Dashed To The Toilet And Wash My Face And Said To Myself In The Mirror ; " I Will Still Survive Without You IhynnBby , But I Will Still Love You. " Haish . Im Just A Sucker For Love , Agree ? D: And Ohh , I'm Paying More Attention In Maths Class & Paying LESS Attention In Sci Class , Its Either Im Crying / Sleeping / Reading A Book . OMG , What Happen To Me ?! Im Dissapointed ):

Thirdly , About My Life .
-- Life Is Hard On Me Now Eversince IhynnBby Left Me . I Got Friendship Problems , I Got Family Problems , And I Got Financial Problems . What I Mean By Financial Problems Is That My Father Is Giving My Money Late , Its In The Middle Of The Month , And I Can't Go On A Shopping Spree You See . Haish , But Nevermind , I Understand His Situation , With A Wife & 3 More Children To Feed , Including Me , Hmphm . I Didn't Ate Properly For A Few Days , I Got A Fever Of 38.6 , And I Still Went To School . Its Like When I'm At Home , I Would End Up Slashing My Hands & Sprawling + Crying + Shouting Helplessy On The Bed , Gooosh . I Dont Know What Is Becoming Of Me :'(

Fourthly , About My Internet Friends .
-- Riishaa Katsumi ; She's Going Through The Same Situation As Me . Her Boyfriend Somehow " Flirted " With Her Own Sister Lurp , OMG . I Feel Sad For Her , And Now I Hope She's Feeling Better . I Tell You What , She's Damn Pretty & Hawt & Cute & Sweet & Kind ! She Was Once A Girlfriend To My Cousin , What A Pity They Broke Up , If Not , When They Get Married , She's My Cousin ! HAHA ! Ok Diam , Im So The OverReacting xD . Overall , I Just Love Her <33

; Kammy Geek , Kakak NaughtyBubble , && Moree ( *Sorry If I Didnt Mention Your Name , You Should Know Who You Are , Its A Mixture Of Boys & Girl * )
-- Thank You To All Of You . I Appreciate Your Concern & Caree . Im Trying To Move On Without Him , But My Heart Can't Seems To Forget About Him . To Those Who I Dont Know But Tag & Cheered Me Up , Do Leave Me Your Emails , Hope We Can Be Friends , Im Friendly , No Worries Ay (: Thanks Once Again You All , For Being There For Me When Im Feeling Low , No Words Can Explain How Much I Love You Guys , Muaaaah !! xDD

-- Alright , Im Done . Today's Quite A Long Post Ay ? Hahaha , I Wonder Who Would Read Up To Here , If You Are , Do Tag Me Ok ? Heheh , Thank You :DD
Will Update Another Time , Or Later On . ;D
Take Caree & GoodBye (:

Monday, March 8, 2010 @ 1:00 AM

- As'salammualaikum (:
I'am Still On MIA-ing , But I Wanted To Post For A Short While .
See The Picture Above ? My Face Looks Pale , Right ? Because I Didn't Slept , Ate & Drank . For Two Days Already ~ Haaaesh , I Really Don't Have The Strength To Move On Without IhynnBby :'(

To All Those Who Cheered Me Up , Thanks Alot Guys . I Appreciate It Alot . But I Just Can't Move On Without Him . Its Heading It's 6th Monthsary Soon , How Can I Just Let It Go . Haish :'(

Thanks Once Again Ay Loves , Love You All >3

So , On Saturday I Went To My Father's House To Study & Teach My Younger Sisters . Basically We Camwhore , HAHAHA ! Muke Satu Satu Mcm Apehr Sialala ~ xD
Then On Sunday , We Went To Arab St To Eat , I Saw Danish , My Adeq Angkat ! HAHA ! He Senyum2 , LOL ;X
After That We Went To Marina Barrage ! Whoo , Geyreqk Ahc , Maen Air , NYEEEEET :DD
Eh , I Saw A Guy Who Is The Same Age As Me Playing With Water Too Hohr , Don't Think Its Me Alone , BLUEK :P
So Yada Yada , My Father Send Me Back By Car Around 9+ , Reached Home , Texted IhynnBby A While , Settle Things , Then Off To Sleep . Oh , I Cried & Slashed My Hand Before Sleeping Yesterday , But Still I Can't Get My Hurtness Off My Heart . I Should Jump Off The Building , Its Better , Right Right ?! (:

Kay Done , Im Off To Do My Homework Now . Im So Into Mathematics Nowadays , IDK Why , But Its Fun :DD
Take Caree Lovee ;

Friday, March 5, 2010 @ 5:57 PM

- As'salammualaikum Readers (:
Im Sorry For Not Updating , Was Busy . Anyway , Im Gonna Be MIA-ing After This Post .
Just Leave A Tag , And Insya-allah I'll Reply It , Can't Promise . Today Post Is Gonna Be Sad , So Yeah , Bear With It Jek Ay ? Thank You .

- 20'September'2009 ;
Everything Ends Here , I Guess . You Wanted Me To Leave You Forever And You Didn't Care , So Fine . Im Gonna Leave You , But Im Still There , Loving You & Missing You Every Single Second . I Will Still Wait For Your Return . You Jolly Well Know That I Love You So Much , Yet You Said Things That Hurt Me . You Said You Can Go Through Everything By Yourself , But Im Here Overcoming This Problems With You , Bcos You're Part Of My Life Too ! I Seriously Hate Leaving You , But Since You Don't Care , I Will . Im Crying Hard Right Now . I've Been Crying Day & Night Eversince We Broke Up . I Cried In Class Almost Every Single Day . I Cried In The Bus When Im On My Way To School Or Home . I Cried When Im Alone . Nobody Knows How Hurt My Heart Is . My Soul Is Wanting You Back . All This While , I Put On A Fake Laughter And Smile To All My Friends . When They Ask Whether Im Okay Or Not , I Will Reply , Yes Im Okay , But The Truth Is Im Not At All ! :'( I Hope You Won't Regret For Me Leaving You . Im Sorry For All The Mistakes I Did To You Last Time , Hope You Forgive Me For That . Thanks For The Past 5 Months With You , I Did Enjoy It . Appreciate Everything You Done To Me . The First Time We Met , We're Both Shy . Didnt Talk Much , I Still Remember What We Did & Go . The Polyclinic , The Park , That 2 Blocks We Go To , The ECP , It Is Still Clear In My Head , But I Know Its Not Clear In Your Head . I Treat Every Single Time With You Preciously , I Miss The Times You Hold My Hands , Kiss Me On The Forehead , You Pujok Me When I Step Merajok , You Wipe Away My Tears When I Cried , I Miss Everything We Did & I Miss You The Most !!!!! I Can't Bear To Leave You , But Since You Said You Dont Care , I Have To , Even If My Heart Is Aching Damn Much . I've Promised My Friends That I Won't Go Into Another Relationship With Other Boys , Except For You . All My Friends Have Been Asking Me To Be With You Once Again , But All I Tell Them Is , We Can't , We're No More Together . :'( The Handphone Strap & Keychain , I Will Still Use It . I Won't Remove It . Our Pictures I Won't Delete It . Your Messages I Won't Delete It Too . And Yeah , Your Promises Are Just Meant To Be Broken I Guess . Where's All Your Promises ? You Asked Me Not To Leave You , But In The End You Were The One Who Leave Me . I Hope You Will Realise Your Mistakes , And Who I Am To You All This While . Daniel Hakim & Diana Herlina Is Gone Too I Assume . May You Find Someone Better Then Me And Last Forever With Her Till Death Do Both Of You Apart . Give Her Your Fullest Love , Don't Toy With Her Heart . You Will Always Be In My Prayers Love . I Admit Im Sucha Bad Girlfriend To You Last Time , Im A Bitch . Yes , I Am . So I Hope Your New Girlfriend Will Do Much Better Then Me . TakeCare Of Your Family , Don't Make Your Mother & Father Angry . Dont Fight With Yan Anymore & Jaga Hamizan & Haziqah Baek Baek . Lastly , Takecare Of Yourself And Your New Girlfriend Well . Remember Im Still Here Loving You Forever , My Heart Won't Stop Loving You , Because You're The Guy That Brighten Up My Day . I Wont Give Up On You , Because I Love You So Damn Fucking Freaking Much To Let You Go , Goodbye Love <33

- My Heart Is Torn To Pieces , Im Gone People . Take Care Of Yourselves , To Those Who Have My Number , Do Call / Text Me Alright . Others Do Tag Ok . GoodBye .

-- With Tears , EES .

Labels: Goodbye Muhd Shalihin Bin Naim, ILY .

Tuesday, March 2, 2010 @ 12:44 AM

* I Want You Back Baby , I Need You D:

* I Miss Your Tender , Soft Lips Baby :(

- As'salammualaikum Readers / Stalkers (:
Im Here Blogging , Because Im Bored And I Don't Know What To Do . Hmph .
Currently Chatting With BabyGirl , RieeRainbow (:

So Today , I Didn't Went To School ! ^^
Hahahah , A BadGirl ? Nuh-uh , I Got My Reasons ;D
Woke Up At 10+ , Msg-ed IhynnBby & Eyfaah , And On Lappy ~
Went Bloghopping , Editing Tagged , And Reading My Whole Conversation With IhynnBby Eversince I First Knew Him , Nyahahaszxc . Sumpah He Sweet , ILYSM Bhy (:
I've Edited Some Parts Of My Blog , Spot It If You Can Eh Eh , Heees :DD
Ohh Wait , I Smell Something Nice . Its My Nescafe , Nyeeet ;P
Kay , Sumpah Lame Sia Eyzah xD

Im Feeling Kinda Worried + Hurt + Sad Now , Its Because I ................
Fought With IhynnBby Again I Guess . Fook It , Im Really Sorry , Like What I Mention In My Previous Post , Push All The Blame To Me As Im A Failure In Love . Im Really Sorry Ddy , When Can We Stop Fighting ? I Had Enough , I Just Want To Live Peacefully With You , You Know I Love You So Much :'(
Haesh , I Hate It When We Fight , Urgh , Can You Give Us A More Peaceful Life , God ? Boooooo ! I Love IhynnBby So Much You Know ?! Life Will Be Meaningless Without Him !!! :'( :'( :'(

Kay , Cut It Out ~
My Heart Is Torned To Pieces Again , I Just Need IhynnBby & His Love To Cure My Heart , Seriously :'(
Anyhoots , I Better Stop Blogging . I Wanna Bath ! Smelly You Know :P
I Didn't Bath , Dued To Thinking Of IhynnBby & Crying Whenever I Flashback Through Our Pictures & Messages . Come Back Soon Bby ! D:

TakeCare Lovelies .
- / Copyrighted ; EES .

Monday, March 1, 2010 @ 4:30 AM

[ I Swear This Picture Is Not Needed , Agree ? HAHAHA ! ]

- As'salammualaikum Readers / Stalkers (:
Currently I've Just Taken My Bath , And Chatting With Saidd Bieber & Nur Afiqah , Your GoodGirl , AiyuChek And Aikiyo [:
Boo , Im Very Bored You Know ? Haesh , I Got Into A " Fight " With IhynnBby ];
Oh Well , Im Not Gonna Elaborate About That , Since It Cuts A Big Hole In My Heart :'(

Woke Up At 5.50a.m & Dolled Up , Left House At 6.15a.m . Quite Fast Ain't I ? Hahah , Of Course , My Name is FAZeerah Mahr , Cheeeydeboook ! xD
Kay , Shuttup . Boarded 969 All The Way Till Tamp , And Took 67 Next ~
I Felt Like Vomiting & Was Damn Weak , And Kept Yawning . Goooooooosh D:
Reached There , Saw FeeFeeCine , Eyfaah , Hanis & Nabila . Walked Into School With Them , And Had Assembly . I Didn't Even Talk & Look At Fiha Or Aqyla . Whatever Ay Korg ? -.-

Then Had Interaction Time , We Proceed To The Canteen , Because It Was SzeYuan's Birthdaaay ! Had A Chocalate Cake , But I Didn't Ate It , Since My Tummy Was Making Trouble . So Jyeaahs , Happy 14th Birthday Ay SzeYuan ? Big Girl Already Hohr ! May You Be Happy Always Ok ? (:

After That , Had Maths , Was Paying Attention At The First Period & At The Other Half Of Period , I Gave Up , My Tummy Really Gave Me Problems ];
Had English Aftermaths , Quite Bad I Can Say . Mr Yap Is Getting Easily Fedup / Fustrated With Us Nowadays , Damn , I Hate It . Where's The Old You Siaaaaaaa ? -.- Recess Was Next , Had 2 Boxes Of Sushi , With 6 Small Pieces Inside , And Drank Cyrsnathenum [spelling ?] Tea . While Queing Up , Hatim Spoke To Me , Talked About Fiha / Aqyla .

Then Had Mother Tougue Next , Was Quite Ok . Copied Some Works From Hanis , Since I Didnt Heared What Cikgu Amir Said , I Was Busy Hearing Musics . HAHA ! ;DD Science Was Ok , Paid Attention For 5 Mins , And Slept For The Next 55 Mins , HAHA ! Damn Hot Lha I Tell You , Pfft . School Ended , FeeFeeCine & Eyfaah Helped Carry My Bag , Since I Was Walking Like A Drunk Girl , I Was Damn Weak , And My Face Was Pucat , And I Had Red Eyes .

Then We Both Bused 222 To BedokInter , Ate At LJS , Saw Alvin , Clare & Alvin's Cousin , Azrami ~ NyetNyeet ;P Ate , Laugh Like Nobody's Business , Hahah ! Then Once I Stepped Out Of LJS , I Vomited , Haaaaaaaaaesh , I Dont Know Why Im Turning Out To Be Like This , I've Been Weak Eversince IhynnBby Left Me , The Old , Hyper Me Is Gone ):
Walked Towards Library , SlackSlack , Saw Kak Shakinah & Kak Ayuni . Then Saw Kyna , Shasha , Nurindah , Yana & Moreee ~
Slacked Till 5.40p.m . Bus-ed Home , And Here I'am ~ ;DD

-- Bhy , Im Sorry For Everything , Even If I'm Not In The Wrong , But Like What I Said Last Time , When We Fight , Just Push All The Blame To Me , Because Im A Failure At Love . What You Said Just Now Really Makes Me Hurt , I Cried , During School Time , I Cried And Cried , That's All I Do Day And Night . When I Flashback About Our Pasts And When I Look At Other Couples , I Asked Myself ; " Why Cant We Be Happy As Them ? Must All This Befalls On Us ? " Haeesh , Whatever It Is , Hope You Calm Down Ay , I Will Still Love You Like Always , My Feelings For You Won't Fade , I Assure You That . I Love You Forever And Always Bhy (:

Baah , I Guess I Type A Long Post Didn't I Today ? Should End Off Now ~
Maybe Im Not Going To School Tomorrow , Wanna Rest At Home , Im Super Sick Now , IhynnBby Don't Know About This Yet , If He Knows , Sumpah Bumi Retak I Tell You -.-
Byeeeeeeeeee Lovelies ;